When I first signed up for my classes for the spring Semester I was so excited. I missed being in school hanging out with friends and having assignments to do. I haven’t been in school since I was in high school in 2008 and it feels like ten years. I guess I didn’t realize how hard dealing with all of my family issues and trying to keep up with four classes would be. I’m trying really hard and I am putting everything I have into this. I hate not being able to spend all day with my kids like I planned but me finishing college isn’t for me it’s for them. I just want to give them a good life and I know this is how they are going to get that. I enjoy all of my classes and I want to do so well in all of them but it’s like the second that I’m trying harder in one class I lose focus on one of the others. I’m not going to lie it is pretty hard and way harder than I ever expected it to be. My look on life and what I’m supposed to be and what I am becoming is starting to look the same instead of complete opposites. I know what I want and I know what I’m fighting to get. I don’t think anyone can get in the way of my plan. The only people I have pushing me to succeed are my kids. The two people I wake up to every morning they are the ones that give me what I need to keep going and I wouldn’t trade that for anything.
Not only are your kids pushing you, but you are, too. At this point, you have to do it for yourself. I admire your courage.
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